Word of the Day:齟齬

Mm I don't need to be writing right now but as I have been sort of Job searching and also doing research on food banks, I am in a weird space currently.

I am looking for all sorts of gigs, English Coach, Japanese Teacher, Personal Coach, Illustrating gigs, Animating gigs.. it is sad how many skills I have that... no one wants apparently. That's why Vocal seems to be my only stability at the moment.

I am not as stressed as I was when I was first doing all these things, it is kind of like returning to a job you hate kinda vibe; you know how to do it so there's a kind of comfortability there, but it feels poopy.

I mean, I do have my shit planned out for tomorrow so I can make that "meeting" worthwhile I guess.

I have some bottles I can turn in so that will get me like 20 bucks or something but they said that we won't have time to do some of the other tasks I had planned because, "We need to update the paperwork."

Ah, she messaged me:

I think we should do the paperwork at the office for privacy.

Ok, I guess it is ramen for breakfast for me right now.

I am finally back home and just making some calls to get some time on my timer really quick. I am a bit annoyed because I recharged my digital Wendy's and apparently it doesn't cover delivery orders. So I basically wasted 25 dollars.

I dunno, I guess I can still order again but I don't get rewards and I don't get to use my digital wallet so, this is annoying. I think Wendy's needs to fix that because other than that, they're pretty good.

I am tired of ramen and fast food though, not going to lie. But since I don't have a ride to places, a lot of options are not available to me.

I am also considering taking out another credit card, which I don't want to do. But I feel like I have no choice at this time.

I also know my brain chemistry is probably changing as well with all these processed foods. It is probably why I am as calm as I am because I am basically poisoning myself.

Not much I can do about it now though.

I feel like I will have to kind of endure like 3 months of this before I will be completely back on track and I also think that, if I do get another credit card, I will have to start switching all my focus on making money and finding gigs would become more imperative now.

I did think about working at Dairy Queen just because it is a short walk away from where I am and, really that's the biggest barrier with everything. I don't know though, if I do get a job like that, it will be exactly as I said before: I will be completely stuck in the rat race with no way of escaping completely.

The only smart thing I can conceive myself doing at the moment is planning for bigger things with the little brainpower I have now at the moment.

I was approached about one job that seemed to be great which was making me happy but, it ended up being a scam, which was pretty disappointing. Especially since they were like " You need to make a video submission, portfolio, blah blah blah " and I did all that, but then they were trying to get me to do a job that wasn't even what they were asking for so I was like, yea nah, that isn't right.